Spotting a bench nearby, i took a seat.
Watching as people passed by, either on their own or with family members or pushing a stroller or with their dogs, cats or pets.
Suddenly, i felt someone tugged the bottom of my shirt. Glancing to my right side i saw a boy, more likely a toddler with mud smudged all over his cute face.
His shoulder was tensed and he was scowling. Smiling, i grabbed his hand and hold em in mine and soon felt his shoulder relaxed but a little scowled was still tugged on his cute little mouth.
You would have thought i would asked him questions by now right?
Wrong, because i didn’t care during that time. All i knew that, he’s safe with me.
So little to understand that life was not as simple as he believed it to be.
His daily problem consisted of what he wanted for breakfast or how tall he had gotten since last ramadhan.
How lucky of him, i wished my life was that easy.
Him not understanding life yet, just enjoying his own little world.
Right?
Wrong.
Who would have thought, at home his family was struggling to not let him know that they are getting a divorce.
Who would have thought, he had knew all along.
Who would have thought that every time his baby brother would cry (2 years younger, he’s 6) asking where mummy is, he’d be the one to comfort him.
Without receiving comfort from his parents.
Who would have thought, every time his dad dropped him off at kindergarden and left without giving him a kiss on the forehead like how every other kids was receiving, he knew all along.
That his dad blamed him for what had happened between his parents relationship.
He’s now older, stronger and more mature.
But, would he ever forget when he was the one acting like a farther towards his baby brother instead of their own father throughout their childhood.
Regardless what you children age is
4,6,10,16,18,25,30,40,45,50.
Parents need to realise that
Children can’t choose who their parents are.
Every action that you made, we will remember and used it against you.
Our attitude depends on how we are raised.
Your decision will affect our lifes.
Naah, just kidding.
Parents need to realise that, regardless of what our age is
We’re still growing.
We’re still learning about life
We will always need your attention
Your support
For you to be understanding
And most importantly
To not judge
And be disappointed with how our life turned out to be
Even if you guys knew that it wasn’t the best and we could have done better
Just tell us you knew that ‘we did try, and things are meant to happen that particular way’
Oh, and whatever gestures you guys makes towards each other, we will most likely do that to our partners(spouse)
So watch out, cause we’re watching
Realising that i had zoned out, i dragged that little boy with me asking ‘wanna grab some ice cream?’
Suddenly, all that mattered during that moment was
What flavour would i choose.
Peccatori
P/s: i didn’t know where this was going actually, so i had to end it there. Sorry, it’s a shitty writing.
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